...who are you NOW?

..i'm starting my new month with a bad mood., it really pissed me off.. Do you know the feeling when you want to hate a person but you just can't do it. I'm thinking now, I am hating this person or its just me that I hate my self.

You've been a very nice friend but slowly you change the way you treating me...it is so unusual that this thing is happening to us. Sometimes I could say that might be, its better for us to stop talking and forget the what we've been through, although it is so much fun and happeness I felt when we talk but in other side its hurting me....It pains me to think and observe what kind of attitude your showing, I really don't have any idea what is this for... I suggest that you can be frank if you like, nothing will hold you.... If you think I would do such , well,then i will prove you wrong.. I was enlighten now that I been wasting my time giving you such attention when you do to me is just I'm an option..Someday you'll realized my worth if not then ok..no biggy!!!!

I always been true to you as a friend, a someone who you can turn to too, telling or I shared even such nonsense things, coz I think it would be ok with you but I guess I was totally wrong starting up things . Maybe we are so different, we may agree one thing or two but it doesn't mean we are same.. I observe that we both are just pretending... In my side I pretend to act that, its is all good and nothing happens between us., as for you,you are pretending and acting something when your not just to make me feel good and think that you are still cared for me. I beg of you, to stop this coz honestly I can't tell you to stop.....

• Will you going to do this or gave me more pain?!
• Will you going to stop hurting me?!
• Will you going to act how you should act?!
• Will you going to tell me strainght to my face what you really feel?!
• Will you going to be true to your self bout me?

Hope when you read this, you'll know what I really want from you, coz i think you are still someone that occupied the big part of my heart.

...attack by pau

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I just got a super bad day being attack by my gastric ulcer and it is so a damn time of my life.. You know that feeling when the pain goes through you back while the gas pain also reacting inside you tummy... so youch youch!! I been using "pau liniment for awhile when ulcers attack me, somehow it helps to relieve and make me sleep cz of the mint and guess what everytime this happen to me i took 6-10 tabs of antacid which is 650mg/tab for just 6 hours..gladly it won't get me overdose, will atleast 20 of that might be get me to overdose.hahahah...

Anyways...nothing much happen just that, and still trying to make things change.

...its Luzypiere

Last two weeks ago we just adopt a kitty..thinks she like days old, not sure. Before we decide to get her or him coz i'm not sure if she's she or he's he..lol. we just waited that might be her/his mom is going to get her/him from where she/he been left. That was like 2 days hearing her/his meow meow meow, and its so irritate me coz I can't sleep, then in the morning grannies went to backyard to check the meow meow meow came from and it was near in my window so much...So then we get her/him and put her/him in the box and feed her/him with a milk, I just used a dropper so that it would be easy for me to feed her/him. I'm thinking what to name her/him, at first i decide to call her/him Epson , why Epson coz she was place to a Epson box, my old printer box..heheh... But later on I change it, to Luzy, I think Luzy is just such a cute and nice name for herhim,I got that name from Narnia, I don't care if later we find out that its real gender is he or her as long as it stick toLuzys name...... And at the second thought I also like the name Piere, so then finally her/his name is Luzypiere.. Lolo said its kinda bad name coz we're inviting satan to it..Lucifer which we know is a demon or bad one...but from the bible it self that name is the most beautiful name of an angel but turns to be a bad enemy of our God. Well, i dont invite or refering to that thought..And I got some pictures here not so good coz I only used my webcam.

Luzy 1 week old with us. sleep on my slipper

Luzy is more comfortable sleeping on my lap

Fall asleep after drinking her milk at noon

she getting bigger now, but she looks like a rat..hahaha

kamang

shes biting my finger well actually sucking it.she thinks its a boobies

What happen to this Sunday?

I know Sunday is a family day... Church day... Rest day for some, not for the others... I was thinking that this day is another bored and useless day alone....but what was just happen that really suck me up is I got some signs that this guy I like is no longer like me anymore... Sometimes is so hard to deal such feelings which you know that you don't like to let it go,. But I've decide now, its kaput... Thank you for you time and attention but I think you can leave now.. Its not worth of waiting and patience to show for someone who is not worth it. Well, lets just hope we found what we are looking for... bye!!!!

...together again

It wasn't a plan to meet up with these guys but me and Mig don't have any plan B by that time and its just pops-out to her head that she missed some of our friends and so I agreed too. After attending church we go straight to Mango where most of our ages stayed and have fun there. We waited for hours to come coz some of them are busy doing their stuff....I just post few pictures we took that night..not good shot but its great coz we had a captures to look.

Left-Right: Ervin,Jounei,Kim,Migs and Morth (kuwang me, dili completo ang tapuk)

asuswal kami jpon..but where's Edz...aw..shes in saudi now....

A very good friend of our but too busy for his work mao dugay au ng pakita..."Ervin"

If you happen to meet these guys you'll wear your smile always....they make fun jokes.. Kim and Morth

Kim's daily basic needs of life....hehehhehe

I meet Morth's girlfriend "Nicky" shes a korean and shes very nice and friendly..kapoy lang english permi..lol

These guys are very close...you wouldn't ask why...bat one word "owe".....

Us again and theres Manuel behind me Migs Bf....very good friend of mine too...he just meet the boys.