and now, i got allergies from perfume

hello...

now, i'm struggling this damn itchy in my neck, I never thought that my sister's perfume will give me an allergies, I am not quit sure that I do have an allergies on perfume but this time I figured out and then this day is 3rd day that I keep on itching and then some spot "red" one are appearing now.

During sleeping hours I can't even sleep straight coz of this, Already take my drugs for this "Betahistine mesilate and Diphenhydramine" I hope I can get rid of this now...Hate it when allergies attacked me...arrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!!

A lil bit disappointed with 6Hp!

I know it was kinda, sorta, lika late to be able to watched this movie, what?! its like a month, I guess,. Anyways....I was a lil bit disappointed of this part 6Hp coz you know that feeling when the thrilled and excitement of the movie is in there and yet at the end.......you pause and think with a windtalk by your self "what was that?" Well, we know that this part are just the revealing of the dark Lords secret potion power or his "cheverlu" and "eklavush" to our Harry which Professor Dumbledore secretly trainned him so he can perfectly defeat Voldermort.

What I'd excitedly waited is the Hermoine and Ron's kiss...I know she likes Ron, that was the thing when the girl hate or dislike the boy at 1st who have secretly like her will turn to be exactly like that at the end.. And also Harry and Jenny dear part too... I knew that its them will be paired in the last I can since it in the 2Hp before..yay!

There is no much of power thing scene in this part, but it is still good, I was even thinking the big part of the scence is when Pr.Dumbledore was killed and that was the part that I windtalk with "what was that?"....and the end...oh my, I can't wait to see the next one... I'm more visualistic, more on what my eyes sees...I can't enjoy the book thing coz it will put me to sleep, will ofcourse except if I am really intersted reading it, somehow!!!

.....09-09-09

This day would never be back, 09-09-09 "sept.9,2009" unless if your going to use a Time Machine which can travel back the time. :) Its also a holiday here coz the Malacañang proclaim this day a non-working day coz its a 40th day of former presidents Cory Aquino's death.

Well, other thing to I made a new account on my yahoo messenger, I want it to be personal too and I don't like talking with people which i don't like anymore whos in my list and i just can't erase them, so this is it..

One of the boring day, gladly my aunt vic2x ask me to go with her to do groceries and I did, I am happy coz I really wanted to buy a puree mango juice but I don't have a money, and yet ask me what i want..they i have it a puree...yepey!!!!

I got a new profile picture..I know its not cute but in my eyes, i think it is...heheheh..no make up, I'm having a afternoon snack at that time when i decide to take some shots... I got lots infact, but out of them this one is my choice...Outof being bored this is the result...Well, actually every afternoon is boring if you got no job and just sitting you butt whole day....hahahaha.....

let get bored...

we don't know what to do that afternoon and its funny coz our lil Luzy is playing with her shadow, what i did is i took a video on it. Its not a good one but atleast we have it..

...psychology personality

Jouneijin Nuna L Alas most are yeah!!!...but some are yah?!

Mysterious... oftentimes, I'm loner. I know my true friends and only them are allowed to unders...tand the real me..

I hide your emotions... Sometimes pretending to be always happy. Sometimes, not giving even a hint of what I really feel.

I love deeply... I may flirt along and people think I'm a playgirl but the truth is: my heart belongs to only one.

I have so many ideas in mind... Sometimes creative and aggressive! If I want something, I'll do anything to get it! But except those extavagant things.

Omg!!! I am an ideal girlfriend... I don’t care if my partner doesn’t really love my as long as I love him. .

I undoubtedly good-natured! Most of the time, people are confident to approach me because they know I will consider them.

I love actions... with the hero-like taste! I focus on there strengths and use them to protect persons/things that are important to you.

Hahaha..funny I say this.. But just incase a front line to know me....:)

...just coincide

You might wonder that this sign is a "recycle" right? but in other side can you tell that if we think also the same,.. coz for me I used to think this as the cliche "what goes around comes around"? will we know that its the american line known for KARMA!

I am not saying that i am a little bit whelmed about it,,... that someone has done something in me is partially enjoying their Karma but ofcourse I feel pity on them why they encounter such Karma, like the whole bunch of people around you are talking at your back or maybe problem bout work or arguing with co-staff or even you killed a cockroach?! Every lil thing really matters. I say that once a person have done bad things to you and you chose not to have you vengeance to bids coz you were to good to be true to do such but other people or event ask for it in time,,,hahahah,,,, but you know what, you maybe forgetting it or might be forgiving that person but in every ways that karma will actually intails in their life coz wether good or bad karma is destined for you, definitely you'll have it in any way and it will not tell you when do will they arrived, its just knock you down 6 feet below the ground!!!!! opppssss....thats youch!!

As thinking about that Karma thing i said earlier, I am watching this movie for the 1st time and I thought it is some kind of non-sense movie but then I ask my sister if this was the american version of the Korean Sassy girl...and she said yes! Well its not bad but there is really a big dash between the korean and this version...ans so, actually this movie is just letting us view the part if your destined with each other it will come back to you path,,,,,.

Haven't you wondering the Karma thing and this movie I watched really reconnects what I've think and found out...Gosh...I

didnt actually planned this I am so bored so what I see or touch or even read also talked to are just flowing through.....Im hungry..are you hungry?!!! ok. ill be back, I have to get a bite..............................

And also heres a thing, if your not really ready to start a new relationship with other people after that tragic love hurt ending of yours , I say its better if you enjoy the pain and absorb it coz by time that you've healed , even a single pinch of pain you wouldn't feel it nomore. And for Gods sake guys please don't use an innocent people just to get rid of that stupidness of yours just because your hurting too much trust me it might be a lil help but still it would not over as what you've wanted to....It maybe not a karma but that will return in you by time but absolutely that thing will more worst than what you have done with it. I am not saying this coz I know what exactly happen or the right routine of one relationship, I just saying this coz I also experience that somehow, well,,,,im the victim,..... And FYI I don't have the capacity of doing such thing like using someone feelings..

...i'll kept it in pandora's box

This is a continuation of my post from the other night or day, this is just going to explain a little more further about what happen, what I think and the plans that going to resolves my Qs. You see, theres a part there that I ask"why didn't I cried when I found out that something which is exactly can hurts me if I know that." and also theres a quote I like, " what you don't know, won't hurt you"...I would agree with this but in other side, I say its also a good idea to ask or to find out what is really there and here or even everywhere whats exactly happen. In short "the fact"......

And then I ask some friends of mine which I know that definitely can answer me a good answers... Below you can read some explaination that I ask to my self why I dint cried.

Sometimes when the pain is too much, the mind and the body instantaneously reacts through its defenses... Initially, its the crying that transpires, which is actually not bad. crying is somehow cathartic... afterward, when the emotion has partially settled in, then there comes cognition - logic. then, all of a sudden, the tears stops flowing, no matter

how hard you try to cry... the body has just had enough of crying. it's the mind that assumes the place of your tears.

For wanting to cry badly but tears do not fall, well, perhaps my heart has partly accepted the situation. it is just that I am in the refusal to completely accept things logically..., the way things are normally, it is due to the fact that one's ego is always the reason why acceptance is difficult. I am right? I guess....

We always think that it is painful to accept, but the sooner to embrace the pain and the whole catastrophe, the better it is. for then, the cycle of the whole loving process will be completed. there's pain -->> denial -->>anger -->> grieving -->> acceptance -->> moving, those are the essentials in moving on and in healing, especially. You see, all I'm saying here is just a basic ways how to solve such one problem like this, it is our mind that complicates everything then runs through to your emotions which is end up screwed up all.......

Then, after absorbing it all...there is a part that I made a decision which is I don't know if this is going to be a good idea and can produces a good outcome at the end.. Well. lets just hope or even pray that it will.. But you know what, I am very forgiving person I don't keep hatred inside me, I don't like bad aura coz even that happen we always think that to keep those beautiful memories in our 'pandora's box'... someday, you'll open the box without any pain just a smile and the thought that once upon a time, he was a part of your life and you to him...

Drama is end..hahahhaa

...flAt AffEct when it wAs rEvEaLed

I was mentioning ealier with my 1st post bout this month,,. well you can read it then after you'll understand this post......

How would I start this one, I am so blank but my fingers keep on pressing and typing and said it loud out here as what I really think and feel now... Wasn't expecting that I would just react that very simple reaction, I thought I was going to cry out bunchly but I'm wrong, I wanted to cry like you were losing someone who is important but honestly I can't do it now, maybe later if I'm alone in my room.

I was trying not to intertain everything that gives me pain and it took me few days even almost a month to figured out something or even the answers that I was looking for. But now, I think I got the answers and definitely no need to explain the whole things... Just one word which is explains everything... I said to my self that"congrats you deserves it" to know that and I am happy.. Will i'm not crazy i just said it to my self... Would it be so plastic if I said now that I am ok?, coz earlier when I found out what should I need to find out,,,,, Im thinking that I really need to cry out so loud but then I just can't, tears won't fall I can't think the pain nomore.. What was that mean? Did it really pains me to know that or maybe it is one thing that helps me to run from pain and being hurt. Or maybe that day or time come later for the real cry and flowing the emotions outly. I don't know who loss but I think maybe its not just us, maybe natured realized that we shouldn't be together.

I guess and hoping this will be the last post about this issues...I am going to try not to include anything bout that " Issues" again... All I can say is, Prayers really works!!!