mmmm, sigh* this is not really a big deal for me but it bugs me in other side!!!
Last day, as i was talking to my ex, we open up something about us, and i start thinking that now it is impossible for us to get together again bcoz he just can't stand that were to far apart or should i say he just can't stand how jealous i am.... i say it's nice to know that your gf or bf gets jealous for sometimes cz that mean your very important, you mean a lot to them. But maybe i just act too much that he realized this is going nowhere and useles..Even if were far from each other and so imposible to fell inlove with someone whose half world away from but deep inside in me i know that i have that feeling which they called "love" and i really "like" him alot... I just can't say why, but thats how i felt..
I try not to talk with him but i can't stand not too, we used to talk a lot everyday before and that is also the reason i can't move so fast , i still miss the way he talk to me, the way he calls me, and the way he says I LOVE YOU, my heart beat every time it calls his name. Sometimes i think i guess this is the time to let go all of it and stops what you should stop.
When we're talking, and cams on, i saw him that he was talking on the other person also, will were just chatting as i've said..."sayop ko" i was so curious to know who he talks to, it took me so long to ask who was it, because i don't want him to think that you know..... But then when i ask he said its a girl that wants him , gradually i was at pause and think "youch" thats kinda hurt--phew--...but i didn't show it and what i did i just pretend that im happy that finally someone want him now so im in deep thought if he likes also this girl so that would be the end of me, like face out but he said he don't like her he rather have me than her...shooooot....will ofcourse my heart jump out to hear that but it doesn't mean thats the fact..and so im worried -oh girl you have to start facing reality now... And i finally said "ok" this is it...its over ! kaput!! get over it!! something like that!
I really don't like to let go of him but i have no choice....distance and jealous blocked all the ways between us. But even if we're not together good thing is we still care and friends with....he said forever...
but even if i get over with it, it doenst mean i stop saying something bout that short love story of ours-will if you call it love... 'til next time then... tah tah!!!!
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