...flAt AffEct when it wAs rEvEaLed

I was mentioning ealier with my 1st post bout this month,,. well you can read it then after you'll understand this post......

How would I start this one, I am so blank but my fingers keep on pressing and typing and said it loud out here as what I really think and feel now... Wasn't expecting that I would just react that very simple reaction, I thought I was going to cry out bunchly but I'm wrong, I wanted to cry like you were losing someone who is important but honestly I can't do it now, maybe later if I'm alone in my room.

I was trying not to intertain everything that gives me pain and it took me few days even almost a month to figured out something or even the answers that I was looking for. But now, I think I got the answers and definitely no need to explain the whole things... Just one word which is explains everything... I said to my self that"congrats you deserves it" to know that and I am happy.. Will i'm not crazy i just said it to my self... Would it be so plastic if I said now that I am ok?, coz earlier when I found out what should I need to find out,,,,, Im thinking that I really need to cry out so loud but then I just can't, tears won't fall I can't think the pain nomore.. What was that mean? Did it really pains me to know that or maybe it is one thing that helps me to run from pain and being hurt. Or maybe that day or time come later for the real cry and flowing the emotions outly. I don't know who loss but I think maybe its not just us, maybe natured realized that we shouldn't be together.

I guess and hoping this will be the last post about this issues...I am going to try not to include anything bout that " Issues" again... All I can say is, Prayers really works!!!