This is a continuation of my post from the other night or day, this is just going to explain a little more further about what happen, what I think and the plans that going to resolves my Qs. You see, theres a part there that I ask"why didn't I cried when I found out that something which is exactly can hurts me if I know that." and also theres a quote I like, " what you don't know, won't hurt you"...I would agree with this but in other side, I say its also a good idea to ask or to find out what is really there and here or even everywhere whats exactly happen. In short "the fact"......
And then I ask some friends of mine which I know that definitely can answer me a good answers... Below you can read some explaination that I ask to my self why I dint cried.
Sometimes when the pain is too much, the mind and the body instantaneously reacts through its defenses... Initially, its the crying that transpires, which is actually not bad. crying is somehow cathartic... afterward, when the emotion has partially settled in, then there comes cognition - logic. then, all of a sudden, the tears stops flowing, no matter how hard you try to cry... the body has just had enough of crying. it's the mind that assumes the place of your tears.
For wanting to cry badly but tears do not fall, well, perhaps my heart has partly accepted the situation. it is just that I am in the refusal to completely accept things logically..., the way things are normally, it is due to the fact that one's ego is always the reason why acceptance is difficult. I am right? I guess....
We always think that it is painful to accept, but the sooner to embrace the pain and the whole catastrophe, the better it is. for then, the cycle of the whole loving process will be completed. there's pain -->> denial -->>anger -->> grieving -->> acceptance -->> moving, those are the essentials in moving on and in healing, especially. You see, all I'm saying here is just a basic ways how to solve such one problem like this, it is our mind that complicates everything then runs through to your emotions which is end up screwed up all.......
For wanting to cry badly but tears do not fall, well, perhaps my heart has partly accepted the situation. it is just that I am in the refusal to completely accept things logically..., the way things are normally, it is due to the fact that one's ego is always the reason why acceptance is difficult. I am right? I guess....
We always think that it is painful to accept, but the sooner to embrace the pain and the whole catastrophe, the better it is. for then, the cycle of the whole loving process will be completed. there's pain -->> denial -->>anger -->> grieving -->> acceptance -->> moving, those are the essentials in moving on and in healing, especially. You see, all I'm saying here is just a basic ways how to solve such one problem like this, it is our mind that complicates everything then runs through to your emotions which is end up screwed up all.......
Then, after absorbing it all...there is a part that I made a decision which is I don't know if this is going to be a good idea and can produces a good outcome at the end.. Well. lets just hope or even pray that it will.. But you know what, I am very forgiving person I don't keep hatred inside me, I don't like bad aura coz even that happen we always think that to keep those beautiful memories in our 'pandora's box'... someday, you'll open the box without any pain just a smile and the thought that once upon a time, he was a part of your life and you to him...
Drama is end..hahahhaa
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